I owe, I owe...

...so off to work i go!!

I have been dying to say this from the day i saw this line .... and now after seven years, I really am a WORKING woman again.

So pleased, happy, super excited and slightly weak in the knees.

Thank you God and my best friend for making this happen.

:)

Truly Blue

Never knew i had it in me
To be so patient, so kind, so true
Never knew i had it in me
To be so cruel, so selfish, so blue

The madness drives me up the wall
And on the love, i gently float again
Sometimes so tired, so weary, so lost
I wonder...
What have i gained?
What has it cost?

Edit : Was going for angst....i suspect i have successfully foisted it on my readers....i cant help laughing when i read this now...but swore i would never delete a post .. so...peace!!

Sheesh.

I hope to be a working woman again (the kind that actually gets paid) by the time July ends.

Am keeping my fingers crossed but in the meantime, I thought it would be correct to start talking to Jun about that fact that he will be able to see me only after six in the evening and the fact that he will have to be in his grandmother's care till then.

Now a lot of people have told me that it takes time for a child to adjust to suddenly not having a mom around ... it might lead to some tantrums and the like. So it was with great trepidation that i told jun about me looking out for a job and the fact that I might start working soon and he would have to be in his grandmother's house till i come and pick him up each day.

His reaction was "oh, ok!'

I was quite sure it hadn't sunk in till that evening when we visited my mother-in-law and arjun, on seeing his cousin, runs to him screaming " You know what, my mom is also going to office so i am going to come and play with you EVERYDAY!!! and he danced around whooping with delight!

I suppose i should be feeling relieved.

But if i have to be honest, i am a little broken hearted.

:{

Did she really think....

...that she would make a sale by saying "something for your dark circles, madam?"

hmmpphh!

I wonder...

..if anything can feel worse than the sound of car scraping pillar when you are the one driving.

Sad. Angry. Sad. Very Angry.

Damn!

If

So felt like doing this when i saw it on wanderlust's page .

Its nice to be dreamy sometimes :)

- If I were a season, I would be Spring
- If I were a month, I would be September
- If I were a day of the week, I would be Friday
- If I were a time of day, I would be Evening
- If I were a planet, I would be Saturn
- If I were a direction, I would be East
- If I were a tree, I would be a Coconut tree
- If I were a flower, I would be a Gerebra
- If I were a fruit, I would be a Mango
- If I were a land animal, I would be a Horse
- If I were a sea animal, I would be a Sea horse
- If I were a bird, I would be a Kingfisher
- If I were a piece of furniture, I would be a comfy sofa!
- If I were a liquid, I would be lemon tea!
- If I were a stone, I would be a Ruby
- If I were a kind of weather, I would be Cloudy
- If I were a musical instrument, I would be a Guitar
- If I were a color, I would be Red
- If I were a facial expression, I would be a 'hunh'? !!
- If I were an emotion, I would be Gratitude
- If I were a sound, I would be the laughter of a child
- If I were an element, I would be Water
- If I were a car, I would be a Beetle
- If I were a food, I would Pasta!
- If I were a place, I would be Goa
- If I were a flavor, I would be Honey nut crunch!
- If I were a scent, I would be a male aftershave
- If I were an object, I would be a vase full of fresh flowers
- If I were a body part, I would be Ears! :)
- If I were a song, I would be "Walk the Line" by Johnny Ray Cash

What about you?

You know you've put on weight when...

...your neighbhour who sees you almost everyday, suddenly asks,
" You have some good news to share with me"?

sigh....

Love is...

...doing little things that actually make life easier for the other person :)

And then there are some days...

.... when you wouldnt think twice about handing over both the men in your life to the lowest bidder!

Depressed.

Yesterday, two horrible things happened.

First, the plane crashed. Not in my part of the city but since we are not far from the begumpet airport, they would often fly close to our apartment building. From my balcony, i could see 2/3 planes flying together. Though they did not do anything fancy, the very sound they made would get my heart beating faster and hair stand on end. It was awesome.

And then we got to know that one of them had crashed and the pilots had died and i for one, am feeling so so so sad...it was like i almost knew them. We have decided that come Sunday we will STILL go to the airshow.

The second horrible thing i got to know from my mom. She called, first to enquire if we were fine post the crash and second to warn me NOT to watch sun tv especially with arjun around. I actually forgot all about the call since i was kind of mourning the crash but come evening and maddy had heard about the news too. So he switched on the television.

I am no fan of godmen nor of actresses. But what i saw on tv physically repulsed me. NOT because a so called holy man was making out...as far as i know, hindu priests are not required to take any vow of celibacy and everybody is entitled to a personal life. But what kind of a mind would stoop to such a level where they go about installing a camera knowing exactly what the camera is going to capture and worse...how can a television channel air something like this?

Something very wrong happened yesterday and i think the swamiji is the least of our problems.

Maid for each other

I couldnt wait to tell maddy about how my maid told me that i was the most hard working among all the women she worked for.

So i gushed to him about how she told me i cook and then i drop jun and then pick him up again and do the clothes....till maddy stopped me with an exasperated look.

"Arch, all she is saying is that we are terribly middle class..we dont have a cook, we dont have a driver....get it?"

Sometimes it helps to remember why i married this man ;p

Dirty Dancing :)

And then there are some days when all you want to do is go dancing!!

Most probably the only thing that comes close to being something i am passionate about, dancing and me go a long way. I will always remember my first performance. I must have been around six years old when there was a wedding in the family. Hordes of cousins landed up at my grand father's house and somebody let it slip that i didnt think twice about dancing. Suddenly, there were clamours all around for a dance.

I insisted that all the doors be closed. (It didnt matter that everybody was already inside the 'performance room' !) And then i sang and danced - 'I am a disco dancer..ta na na na" My aunt felt the need to explain my 'steps' ocassionaly like - oh, she is shifting the 'mike' from hand to hand' which would always be followed by an 'ohhhh' that went around the room. I was least bothered by this continuous explanation because in my mind, i was right next to mithun chakraborthy, matching him step for step. Needless to say, i got thunderous applause that evening and relentless torture for the rest of my life as the cruel cousins would remember my performance and publicly describe it every time we met.

That, however, did not douse my passion one bit. Fast forward to sometime when i was in the seventh or eigth standard. Most of the dancing i got to see was in the movies. I knew i was not pretty enough to be the heroine but i was quite sure i looked better than all those ladies behind her who also danced when she did. So i did not think twice. I walked up to my dad and said, "Daddy, i want to join the movies and be a dancer" My dad, being the sensible person he is, did not react at all. He just nodded and smiled. But that very summer, my dad called somebody who called somebody who called somebody and who called somebody else and it was all arranged. We were going to see 'movie shootings'. I was so excited, i could hardly breathe.

Since we were living in Andhra Pradesh then as well, i got to see a few south indian movies being shot. I saw Venkatesh at his prime doing a fight sequence. I saw Amala and Srividya and just missed rajnikanth in a movie they were doing together. And finally, we got to see a dance sequence - one which i will never forget. It was the actress called Ramya Krishnan dressed in something like a bharathanatyam costume but minus the sleeves and a whole lot of other parts. So, ok, i swallowed a bit. And then, in the forty five minutes that we watched them, they did a small 5 second step over and over and over again. Which was also ok. But the last straw was that between each practice, this small, dark, hairy man would walk up to the actress and actually wipe her sweat off her back.

My movie aspirations came to a grinding halt.

I still love to dance though and have gone for a class or two and had the best time of my life. Jun and i freak out quite often in our living room while maddy wonders why he couldnt have married some nice quiet girl who will just cook and look nice for him. Luckily in this one respect, Jun totally takes after me. Amazing energy and fun but slightly lacking in the talent department.

But when did THAT ever stop a dancer ? ;p

Dumb at thirty three!!

I thought it would be rude to call up people at eight on a sunday morning to enquire about the apartments they have advertised for.

So i call up at ten.

Most of the houses are taken.

Finito.

On a high, getting higher!

Gloriously,

Deliriously,

Happy!!

My new friend :p

Since we see each other everyday, the one-handed man at the traffic signal selling car cleaning cloth and i have become acquaintances.

Today though, i didnt need to stop because i got an unbelievably green light but i saw him standing at the side. He saw me too and and as i drove by, he actually raised his hand to his chest in greeting!!

I couldnt wait to tell maddy about my new 'friend'. Maddy now says he is going to pay all the vendors and beggars on the road to salute me since it seems to make me so happy.

Actually i was kinda really upbeat....this is the closest i have come to feeling like some kind of mafia don :p

Time to go back to the real world.

Lunch making calleth.

:) :)

I love my country

I went upstairs on the 15th to find so many people had turned up for the flag hoisting held by the apartment. We were a motley crowd and we were all there because we were Indians and proud of it.

I then went down to the little shop next door and found a huge crowd in the basti next to our apartment building....and as i watched, another flag unfurled to thunderous applause.

I think the chinese can go suck eggs.

Some deep stuff

A traffic jam is the result of two or three people refusing to believe that god has given them as much intelligence as anybody else!!

grrrr.

Happiness is...

Catching an episode of 'Friends' that you have actually never seen before!

Buying a beeeeg tub of your favourite ice cream and then getting another equally beeeeg tub free with it!

Waking up late and having mom in law give you a cup of amazing coffee in the next two seconds (how lucky am i!!)

Waiting for Maddy to come back from his tour

Being able to Finally carry and hug junjun and crush him and squeeze him up till he literally cries out in pain. Bye bye hip spica!!

sigh :)

Grow Up!

Growing up is finding out
That things are not just wrong or right

Growing up is finding out
That life is not either black or white

Growing up, is one fine day,
Discovering, the colour grey

My Life Savers

I woke up yesterday looking like a relative of will smith as he appears here. Obviously, something i ate did not agree with me. I suspect the reactions of the men in my life are the reason i did not lock myself up in the bathroom the whole day

Junjun : You look like my amma...you are my amma only no?

Maddy : Arch, it is SO exciting to wake up with a new woman every day!!!

:) :)